Last day of 2007!!!

yeahhh!! the new year is just a few hours away!! ermmm...more accurately around 14 hours away actually but well...hehe.

SOOooo...how was the whole of 2007?? it'll definitely be a year to remember thats for sure. especially the last quarter. hehe...for certain reasons. it was full of surprises...pleasant surprises. and yes, i finally got my taste of teenage freedom!!! ahhh...sweeeeet...haha!! my drivers license finally happened, after long years of longing and dreaming. my year of bumming around was more productive than I expected. my brain is slowly rusting in certain parts...like the maths section for example (7+9 is what again?? did u say 16?? =P). I learnt to handle situations better. Had my heart broken less. Tried to bury my dreams and wishes, only to find that I'm nothing without them. Totally gave up on love and romance, only to have it pop up right in front of me unexpectedly. Like a jack-in-a-box.

You know how the end of something usually makes the lasting impression??? so 2007 was alot of things...scary, sad, boring, sweet, lovely, interesting, emo, and plenty else. but the last and most lasting impression of 2007 is only one thing...surprising. VERY surprising. so I guess if anyone asks, "how was your year??", I could only say one thing....SUPRISING!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Tag #2

so well....since I still got nothing to do lets clear up this pile of tags shall we?? =) sorry pauline!! i know uve tagged me like...4 mths ago n now only im doing it. haha!! better late den never??

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1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.


errr...gender?? I'm definately STRAIGHT...so a guy of cuz. haha...

#1. a sensitive guy...who knows how I feel without me having to spell it out for him. hehe...like, he'll know when I'm annoyed, or upset, or happy, or even sad but trying to hide it. i find it sweet =)

#2. romance would definitely sweep me off my feet for sure...lol. call me corny, but if a guy comes with roses n all I'll just melt =P but of cuz must have some sorta limit la...too much of mushy-ness does get kinda choking sumtimes.

#3. a person i can talk to...have nice conversations with. be able to relate to...talk on and on about nothing in particular. haha...in other words, my lover would be my best friend as well.

#4. ...and also we could just be together saying nothing in particular...hehe. without that awkward silence that happens with some ppl...silence is golden. sometimes =)

#5. physically...i don't have many requirements. a nice height...TALLER den me of cuz. haha!! n a nice nose =P don't ask me whats with the noses...i just notice peoples noses. LOL. n decent looking of cuz...i know its whats inside that counts. but i wanna have a boyfriend i could actually be proud of...not some frog looking guy. goshh...im so bad. hehe...

#6. a person who trusts me enough not to get jealous over lil things...like me giving friendly hugs to other guy friends and stuff like that. n i cant stand over-possessive/ over-protective guys who think they OWN you =.=" totally pisses me off...

#7. a good kisser?? haha....i sound notty. *cheeky smile* but well...my guy definitely has to know how to hold me and show affection rite??

#8. last but not least, someone who loves me just the way I am. and thinks I'm still beautiful without make-up and all messed up, like when i jz get out of bed in the mornings...haha. (everyone go "awwwwww...")

hmmm...come to think of it ive got one last point...lol

#9. a guy i can rely on... strong, not physically muscular la (tho that wud b a bonus...hehe), but strong in character. not a wimp or a momma's boy...or a coward

Tag #1

OK!!! Lee En and Sean...i'm FINALLY doing this. haha!! goshh...cant believe I'm really doing tags...

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1. Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
2. Delete question no.20 and add one of your own question instead.
3. Tag 8 victims to do this tag.

Questions:

1. What is your dream when you were a small kid?
hmmm...to see snow!! =P n to become a pianist...forgot wat else

2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
right now?? hehe...i cant tell u. it'll be such a dead give-away *cheeky smile* but im happy...really =)

3. What do you wish to have right now?
err...dinner. nice new heels. good grades for my diploma exam tomoro. lots of christmas pressys wud b nice too...hehe

4. When is the last time you horse laughed?
horse laughed?? do horses laugh?? *wonders*

5. What did you realize recently?
dreams come true ^^

6. Which bad habit in you that is the most unacceptable?
taking forever getting ready to go out =P

7. When you are unhappy, what will you do?
depends wat kinda unhappy. either i call a fren n talk my feelings out, or throw myself on my bed n sob my heart out, or watch a movie/ go shopping to forget

.8. What are you afraid of losing?
people i love...THINGS included, my handphone for example =P

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
degree in music?? maybe?? hopefully??

10. When you met someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feeling?
profess la...only people in soap operas go around with feelings under cover. den regret it later on =.=" so stupid...

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
sluts, L.O.A (lack of attention) people, bitches n bastards

12. Define loneliness.
being empty with nothing and no one to love...even in a crowd of ppl

13. Are you satisfied with your life now?
yupyup... currently going better den expected. lol

14. When is the most recent time you felt touched?
goshhh...i cant remember!!

15. Where is the most beautiful place that you've visited?
phuket's beaches, niagara falls, michigan's countryside in de autumn

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently.
hmmm..."baby love" by...i forgot who. hehe

17. If you have a wish to come true, what is it?
pass my diploma well n get into Uni

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
duhhh....exam tomoro =S n also next yr...

19. If the world is going to end, what will you do?
pray...say my i love yous and im sorrys to my frens n all...den go on praying =P

20. What do you want for Christmas??
all i want for christmas is my two front teeth, my two front teeth, my two front teeth...oops, i already got my two front teeth!! haha...lame...sorry!

I wanna tag....NO ONE!! cuz I'm a nice person and i don't pass tags around =P hehe...

AHhhhh....I've got piles and piles of tags not done. STOP TAGGING ME!!! haha...=P

But as Lee En would say...probably I should just get started on them then I wouldn't have piles anymore...hehe. I will...soon...SOMETIME soon *cheeky smile*

Who cares

So many questions
Too little answers
So many wonderings
That's left unanswered

But none of that matters
When I'm in your arms
Kiss my fears all away
And I'm left under your charms

Who cares what the future brings
As long as I'm with you
I see my reflection in your eyes
And I believe all you say is true

Who cares what the years bring
I'll worry only where its due
Lets let it be, whatever it will be
As long as I'm with you

What happened??

What happened to the magic?
The star struck feeling in your eyes
What happened to the butterflies?
That were fluttering about in disguise

What happened to midnight kisses?
And fantasies of what could be
What happened to love's deep spell?
What happened to you and me?

It never lasts forever
Romance is but a word
One minute you're up in heaven
The next you're eating dirt

This is reality
I know reality holds true
But I hoped we were different
And I thought that I knew...

...What happens to star struck magic
It just fades away
What happens to butterfly kisses
They disappear one fine day

What happens to golden fantasies
Little goblins come to steal
What happens to lovers' spells
They're broken like pirate deals

But one thing I don't understand
The thing I can't believe to be
Cuz we were just so perfect
Darling, what happened to you and me??

P/s--->> ahhh...it turned out so sad and pessimistic. haha...and soppy too!! =P no worries, i totally dont feel that way =)

Hi GOD...you there???

Are you still there???

heeloooooo....?

Can you hear me??

*crickets chirping*

*silence*

Halooooo????

*Halo alooo alooooooo....(echoes)*

Guess its my fault

Woopss...

My bad

Now what do I do??

I'm in deep sh*t ain't I??

*sigh*

Determination

A bit of talent
A pinch of inspiration
A drop of goal and dream
The rest is sheer determination

The desire to produce beauty
In every note thats played
The desire to hear bounty
In every bow thats laid

But its my determination
That has to see me through
More than drive to succeed
I need more heart to get me through

So give me more courage
The confidence to achieve
Give me strength of soul and will
And faith so I'll believe

God help me

well now...what can I say??

life's good

some parts better than I ever imagined

or dreamed

or dared to hope

it makes the other sucky parts of life less sucky

a LOT less I must say

so I'm thankful

there's nothing more I can wish for

oh yeahh...

except to pass my violin exam that is

thats my only wish for now

cuz as for the rest of my dreams

they're all coming true

for real

unbelievable??

believe it

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I actually can't believe it myself

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people ask, "how are you? how's life??"

for ONCE I can say and actually mean it...

"I'm good...and life's great"

=)

eeekkk....!!

My blogs dying out

Like seriously

My inspiration with it too

W.T.H

But anyway...

I was jz wondering...

Why does everything in life feel like a temporary high??

When nothing ever lasts

And nothing ever satisfies

Not for long enough at least

And when the "high's" gone

All that's left is a gaping hole

An emptiness

Deep inside

Which drives you to look for something more

Something

Anything at all

To fill that void

But nothing ever does

Nothing

..
..
..
..
..

Yes I'm repeating myself I know

Forgive me

I'm emo-ing

So there...

Im back to reality with a bump

*ouchhh...*

Reality with all its problems

And difficulties

And other whatnots

Couldn't stay in dreamland forever I guess

If only

Hmmm...

Oh well

Reality's looking good too

Not as bad as expected??

And reality definitely feels more natural

Not all rainbows and flowers

And dreamy in-the-cloud feelings

It feels REAL

Hmmm...

You know what??

My hearts beating again

Yeah, I think its still there

For sure

I thought it got frozen

No, I didn't think that

It DID freeze over

Either that or it got lost in transition

Or was it...??

Err...

Nevermind that

Its back now

=)

Should I think twice?
My heart is mine to give
Ooops...I think its too late
Nevermind
It should be safe this time
*big smile*

Tell me I'm not dreaming

Of rainbows and roses
Of butterflies and blossoms
Whirlwind romances and fairy tales
New found lovers and open bosoms...

Tell me I'm not dreaming
When I find me in your arms
Tell me that its for real
Every kiss and every glance

Cuz its too good to be true
Every time I look at you
Reality feels so far away
I can't believe you're here to stay

Do illusions come true??
Please please tell me, do
Do wishes come to pass??
Somebody, please tell me fast

So tell me I'm not dreaming
When I find me in your arms
Tell me its all for real
Every kiss and every glance

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I'm hoping its for real
Every second spent with you
For once, life's so surreal
Just tell me that its true

P/s---->> this is de by-product of too many romance novels...turns ur insides all mushy. haha!! NOT inspired by personal experience...

Love Has Dawned

The sun sifts through the clouds
Warming me to my toes
Crawling over the horizon
Its rays break over my soul
I feel pleasant warmth
Rushing through me...

A tiny little ray of light
Pierces through the darkness of night...

Oh, what bliss!
Oh, what heavenly delight!
Love has come to rescue me,
Like the sun redeems the lonely night.

Beautiful love courses through my veins
Setting my heart pumping at the speed of light
Warm shivers tingle up my spine
Right to my lips, where a smile plays unendingly bright

My heart is about to burst
My soul soars with the birds...

I am HAPPY
For the first time since I fell into pain's icy grip

I now know for sure...

Love has dawned
Clear on the inmost recesses of my heart
Pushing away the hurt
Mending the brokenness...

Indeed,
Love has dawned

P/s--->> i dug out one of my poems from my old blog jz for the fun of it...hehe. maybe, jz maybe it describes exactly what I'm feeling now. err...i said MAYBE ok?? haha. Dun go jumping into conclusions =P

hehehe~

*big big smile*

its nothing

=P

really...its nothing

*cheeky smile*

ahhhh...

oh crap

I look ridiculous smiling at the computer screen

But who cares

Cuz I don't

=)

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Smile
And the world smiles with you
Laugh
And everyone would stare at you

But do it anyway...

Long Gone

No, Im not loosing it
Im still kinda sane
What I'm telling you is serious
Don't say it sounds so lame

You can't make up your mind
And I can't wait longer, so its fine
Cuz I don't think you would ever call
I'm not waiting just staring at the wall

Its my life
Its mine to live
I'm not waiting around
Like some dirty dead leaf

So I've now decided...

Enough of this
I'm not waiting for you
I'm sick of this
Now its time to tell you

A minute too long
This 5 words I've borne
When you make up your mind
Baby, I'll be long gone

Yes, I've made up my mind
Baby, I'll be long gone

Its a Monday!!! again...

But at least today's Monday is different...kinda

I don't feel like hibernating

Or moping in my room

Weirdly, what i really feel like doing is...is...errr....

What do I feel like doing??

Cant put it in words exactly...hehe

But nvm...point is, i feel kinda good

For a Monday that is =)

Guess wat?? its a RAINY monday at that

Amazing why I still feel good

But I'm not gonna try to figure my "feel good" feeling right now

I'll just enjoy feeling good 1st...while it lasts

Later I'll figure it ^^

God knows I don't feel like this every day

Heck...i hvnt felt like this in AGES

AEONS maybe

Anyway

The world's a happy place

Cuz I'm happy

*big smiley face*

A heart of stone

Give me a heart of stone
For just a minute a day
I need to feel numbness set in
Merciful numbness from within

A heart of stone
To dry the tears
To numb the pain
Collected from years

A heart of stone
Immune to hurt
Free from ties
That bind me to dirt

A heart of stone
Maybe for just a day
Then I may be truly free
Who cares what people say?

An Illusion of You

In my dreams we've kissed
Only a thousand times before
In my dreams I've held
You close like never before

In my dreams you were perfect
The way you were supposed to be
Then I awoke and saw the truth
My dreams were never meant to be

'Twas just an illusion
That never came to pass
Wishes of a daydreamer
That fade way too fast

Cuz you were standing there
Right before my eyes
Yet you turned away from me
Your goodbye as cold as ice

The reality is this
This reality is true
All along I've loved
An illusion of you

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The illusion I wished
Was just to be loved by you
The illusion I faked
And hoped upon hope to be true

But now I see...

The reality is this
This reality is true
I've loved nothing but
An illusion of you

Its all nothing but
My illusion of you...

I don't care

I don't care

No, seriously

I DON'T CARE!!!

I jz wish I could convince myself
that I really don't care

But I can't

should have seen it coming

there was no other way out

stupid me

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My hearts on my sleeve
Where else do I put it?
Locked away, in a high tower
Or buried, where no one could find it

My hearts on my sleeve
Easily broken in two
I shouldn't leave it for time to fix
I'm gonna hide it, and throw the key too

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I really wish I didn't care
Of the fact that I thought you cared

But you don't

Stupid, dumb ass me

P/s-->> jz emo-ing... dun mind me

I used to believe...

I used to believe
In fairy tales
Prince and princesses
Golden eggs and unicorn tails

I used to believe
The world was fine
A beautiful place to live in
But now I see I was blind

I used to believe
Good reigns over bad
Heroes will rush to save the day
Villains will never have the last say

I used to believe
Love is a special thing
That it would triumph over hate
That soul mates were brought by fate

I used to believe
Dreams always come true
And I was almost right
The moment I found you

I used to believe
Love lasts forever
And I also believed
When you said forever

That I shouldn't have
The biggest mistake I made
It is my fault I know
I believed everything you said

Now I don't believe
In fairy tales
Good seldom wins
Love's a long lost tale

I don't believe
The world's a perfect place
Dreams never do come true
And guess what??

I don't believe in you

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I only believe
What I know to be true
Hearts can always be mended
Though mine was broken by you

P/s---->> original idea from pauline....thanks girl!!

update??

okok...update

ermm...update

hmmm...

*thinking*

**thinking real hard**

***bangs head on table***

welllll...nothings coming

sorry

or rather I should say sorry to myself really

not cause I got nothing to blog about

jz other reasons

reason u don't wanna know bout

no, really...u wouldn't wanna know

why did I think you WOULD actually wanna know in the 1st place??

ahhh...my bad

hmmm...

I feel like eating something

cold, sweet

oh yeah, i already ate ice cream

forgot

maybe i should go eat more

or maybe not

too fat already

wait... I'm not fat

last I remembered I was kinda skinny

right???

hmmmm....

what day izzit today??

Monday??

cuz it sure feels like one

no no, its a Wednesday

and it isn't the least bit gloomy

surprising

I thought moods were affected by weather

apparently not

cuz its so damn bright and sunny out there

whatever

I'll pretend I don't care

you know what?

I think I think too much

and in the end I get so disappointed

cuz things don't usually go the way I figure

lemme re-phrase that

things NEVER go the way I figure

but thats another thing I'll pretend not to care bout

shall I??

so yeah...

I DON'T CARE

ok??

done??

fine??

satisfied??

*sigh*

what the heck

I'm talking to myself

again

*michelle slaps herself*

now I shall get the heck outta here

go collect my scattered brains

laterzz

What the heck was I expecting anyway??

Like seriously...

I feel so damn stupid

Making the same mistakes

Over and over again

Disappointing myself...

But guess it's all my fault

I shouldn't have expected anything

Cuz theres nothing anyway

I'm nothing to you

Why did you make me think otherwise??

**sigh**

P/s--->> dont even TRY to figure wth I'm saying here...aint that sure myself

Baby, take your pick

Been waiting up all night
Wondering whats on your mind
You've got me puzzled, my dear
Clear my thoughts? Would you be so kind?

What do you really want?
Where are we meant to go?
All I get are mixed signals
Jumping about to and fro

Do you really want me?
Sometimes seems like you don't
Yet other times you do adore me
But sometimes seems like you won't

I so don't get it
Confused without a clue
Do you want me? Gotta let me know
I'm not waiting around, I'm not here for show

So tell me now
Baby, tell me quick
Maybe I'll wait awhile
Baby, take your pick

Glimmer of a hope

Dreaming
I think I should stop
Been wishing
And waiting until I could drop

Cuz in the end
Do dreams ever come true?
Tell me, my friend
What are wishes to you?

To me they are...

Empty promises
Blatant tricks of mind
Nothing but guesses
About a future thats so blind

Call me a pessimist
Call me such a bore
That I'd rather be than a romanticist
With empty wishes knocking my door

I've learned the hard way
Believe me when I say so
My dreams I've all but locked away
Leaving for the winds of time to blow

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But yet somethings missing
An urge inside of me
The need for a dream to carry me through
The glimmer of a hope that I once knew

Freaking out!!!

Soooooooooo........de exams gonna be way harder den i thought. oops sorry...VIOLIN exam i mean. *sighhh* For the 1st time in my life i actually practiced till my fingers are red raw and my neck has a mark that looks very suspiciously like a hickey~ from holding the violin too long mind u...not making out in the bushes~ But no matter how much i practice no one can guarantee me a pass. dang those stupid diploma exams!! actually...dang stupid exams(in general)!!

But i guess practicing my butt off does help to a certain degree. so off i go...to practice till my fingers fall off. or my head is permanently angled strangely. or my eyes pop out from straining to read little "taugeh" notes. however you want to put it. makes no difference to me =)

Freaking out
I can't see the way
How do I pass??
Practicing my butt off each day

I really need a miracle
Lord, give me a sign
In the form of a nice big "A+"
Or a "99%" I wouldn't mind

...

I felt it

Finally

My heart was racing

The feeling so intense

Emotions were flying

Sending tingles down my spine

The passion was beautiful

Charging the air around me

I closed my eyes

Living in that moment

Forever, if only

But I couldn't hold on

Had to let it go

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Nope, I'm not in love

And NO, its not what your thinking (don't be dirty!!)

So what was I doing??

**ahem ahem**

I was practicing my violin =P

I made ~for the 1st time~ real MUSIC

Cuz I didn't just play

I FELT

True music of the heart

and THAT jz about sums me up...=)

Sorry for the lack of new posts lately. Been rather bz and low on inspiration these days. But I'll be back with lotsa new poems to post up soon...i HOPE. Foresee I'll be M.I.A the rest of the week sooooo....miss me ok?? haha =P

--->>hugz n kisses<<---

Whats up???

this is what's up!! its a musical which actually doesnt hv very much to do with Tunku himself. which is ironic but...hehe. anywayz, the storyline is great, the music is great, the dancing is great, and so is the singing. haven't really got the whole story yet so i cant give a synopsis. kinda hard to concentrate on the music sheets in front of me and the drama itself at the same time...but i know its good 4 sure =)

the opening night is on the 11th August and it goes on till 2nd September. awfully long time rite?? haha...so u got no excuse to catch it =P tickets are not that expensive...forgot exactly how much though. hmmm...u know what?? just go to the website n check it out la. easier that way...lol --->>KLPac's website<<--- oh yea, its a KLPac production btw.

if u need more info I'm alwayz here *wide smile*

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life has been pretty normal so far. been bz with that "Tunku" thing. every night rehearsal u noe... haihhzz...but it aint that bad actually. hehe..we still do hv fun with the hard work. like lately we've been bringing lots n lots of chocolates n candy n MENTOS. and having a nice nice picnic there (though we're not supposed to be eating backstage...*shhhhhh!!!*) hahaha. so its all good...still tiring though. one fine day when i do remember to bring my cam I'll go get some candid shots to post up here. den u can c how skilled we are at playing a violin and popping M&M's into our mouths AT THE SAME TIME. yup, its definitely possible. when theres a will, theres a way... *cheeky smile*

got to run now...will update when i find time to think


--->>signing off<<---

Its a rainy Monday...again

funny how moods are usually affected by the weather

but rainy Mondays are the worst

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well...u probably noticed i hvnt been updating my blog much. dats cuz i realized ive probably written at least one poem for each and every topic thats close to heart. which in turn, doesnt leave me much more to write about at all. so i'll rather not write anything than run the risk of repeating myself. I NEED INSPIRATION!!!!!


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so tell me why do I feel this way??

Imagine

Imagine myself away
Far from this crazy life
To somewhere over the rainbow
Without any troubles or strife

Imagine myself away
To where wishes do come true
A place no one would ever know
Fantasies my heart believe are true

Imagine, just imagine
And I could reach the sky
Bring the moon back from its place
Just imagine, and I could fly

Imagine, just imagine
And I could float with clouds
Touch the stars and take one back
Just imagine, and have no doubts

Imagine, only imagine
All my problems away
I'm myself, for once a change
Imagine, and there'll always be a way

Imagine
Just imagine

P/s--->> the idea for this post is taken from pauline. go check out her blog for the original --->>click here<<---

Here by the phone

You haven't called
I'm still here by the phone
Been eating my heart out
Waiting for that little tone

Why am I doing this?
Breaking my own heart this way
I already know the answer to this
Been thinking about you all day

You and me wouldn't work
I knew it from the start
Even before you said the first hello
I knew you would break my heart

Kept my mouth shut anyway
And tried to wish the jinx away
Now I know it didn't do much good
Since now I know whatever should I do?

You still haven't called
And I'm still here by the phone
Nothing left of my heart to eat out
Just waiting for that little tone

P/s--->> i know wat ur thinking..."Michelle's getting awfully repetitive n loosing her poetic inspiration" rite?? well...guess wat?? ur RIGHT!! haha

Thank God...FINALLY!!!

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm nearly jumping for joy...hehe

so yeahhh...after hours of melting and/or baking in a lil white kancil, waiting around in steaming "pondoks", listening to approx. 10 hours of total crap, not to mention plenty of blood, sweat, and tears ~(weellll...maybe not the blood and tears part...but u get the idea)~ i got this little card thingy with my picture and name on it. and oh yeah, my address too!! but to me its my TICKET TO FREEDOM!!!!! to think that all my life...ever since i could remember, i have looked upon this day as the day of my independence. the day I will break free from all rulers and all rules. the day I will declare my freedom to the world. the day that...that...~cuts it short~// its my MERDEKA...MERDEKA!! *dreamy look* sighhhhhh...*snaps out of it* hahaha...excuse mua...jz being dramatic =P

so the point is...I CAN DRIVE!! i mean like...legally of cuz. haha. the test wasnt that bad...besides the fact that it was freaking hot and i had to wait for God knows how long...it wasnt bad at all. the best part is i actually passed everything. with not bad marks actually. hehe...was so scared i wud flunk and hv to retake the whole stupid thing again. the JPJ officer guy was kinda friendly...so that was good. n i didnt knock any poles during my parking test. n i didnt roll down the hill on that "naik bukit" thingy. so IT WAS ALL GOOD. hahaha...n I'm SO done with the freaking stupid learning driving system. *wohhoooooo!!!*

anybody needs a lift anytime??? stranded on some deserted road with no transport?? need to get somewhere on an emergency?? no prob!! jz call me =) hahaha...
(wait a min...I'm jz joking ok?? lol)

gonna go test out my new found freedom now...wish me luck!! hopefully i dont end up in hospital or my car on the back of a tow truck. *God forbid* hehe...

WATCH OUT MALAYSIA!!! MICHELLE'S LOOSE ON THE ROAD!!!!!!!!!!

Till later-->> hugz n kisses =)

Saturday morn

Looking gorgeous
On a Friday night
I thought I had lotsa fun
Was out partying all night

Admit I flirted a lil
Had a few drinks with friends
Tried to dance my troubles away
But God knows troubles never end

That was then
And this is now...

I'm all alone
With only myself to blame
Staring at my own reflection
Yet I'm hating the same

The make-up is gone
So is the smile I put on
My eyes are dimmed with tears of shame
I know deep inside I got no one else to blame

The mask is off
And I'm so empty inside
I wonder what happened to
All the fun I had tonight

There's nothing left
But tears streaming down my face
There's nothing left
Not a single sign, not a little trace

I'm gorgeous no more
Early on a Saturday morn
My eyes are red, my heart's so dead
Am I supposed to greet the lovely dawn?

Yet tonight I'll do the same
Put on my make-up, play on my game
Looking for more, I'll search on each day
Don't care how or where, I'll find it some way

P/s---->> inspiration definitely ain't personal experience ok?? lol

Golden Girls

Hello world!
How do you do?
Know what "Golden Girls" are?
Here's some of the basic rules

Welllllll......

We never screw up
We're not allow to
We must always be good
No exceptions, thats the rule

Prim and proper
Thats the way to go
Go crazy and hyper??
No way!! That's a big no no

No alcohol
And definitely no tattoos
Don't even think of clubs and pubs
Just the word itself is taboo

No skirts above the knee
We can only dream about midriffs
Jeans must never be tight or a fit
Baggy's best, that should do it

No more than 2 piercings
One on each ear I mean
We don't have curfews, are you surprised?
That's cuz we're never out...talk about deprived!!

That's just the basic rules
Haven't even got started
But we the Golden Girls know
The last rule's our target

Its the same as the first
Just put in different words
Its says, "Never ever ever screw up"
Wrong that, and you whole life's up!!

~~~~~~

But now I'm breaking free
I'll be Golden Girl no more
Cuz I'm no angel
And I'm no saint
I wanna be who I am
Definitely not perfect, that I ain't

P/s--->> dramatized as usual =P so dont go take it literally....

Im so dead tired...

so so so dead tired. So wat am I doing here blogging?? good question. very good question...

Probably cuz my life's a mess. or maybe just some parts of it. nothing is ever what it appears to be rite?? yeap...I'm a living example. or on second thought...its not my life thats in a mess. its just my head. n im sitting here right now to sort my thoughts out. but what am i actually thinking?? i have NO idea. isn't that just FANTASTIC??? *sarcastic*

so yeahh...I'm not stressing...so it can't be that. got nothing in particular to stress about. It cant be friendship problems...kinda got immune to that awhile ago. Its not any RELATIONSHIP problems...the closest thing I have to a boyfriend is my DOG. sad ain't it?? actually its not sad at all...funner being single. anywayz, back to the point. so what is it?? whats making me sit here when I'm so dead tired already? Most probably its the need to sort my thoughts. But what thoughts am I thinking that need to be sorted?? Its so totally muddled up there (in my head) I cant even figure my own thoughts. how lame is that?? so wait....where was I again?? what was my point?? nevermind then...better disappear before I start messin my whole blog up ~n sooo regretting it later~

oh yeah, by the way...this post is a result of 5 hours straight orchestra rehearsals. it totally messes your "upper story" (your head). so dont mind me please...not thinking straight. heck!! i dont think I'm even thinking right now. byyyeeeeee.....


Till I recollect my wits again--->> hugz n kisses

Give me something more
Than just a temporary high
I need something more
Than just a way to get by

Every turn I take
Leads me further away
Every move I make
I seem further astray

Every minute to date
I feel emptier each day
God, please not too late
How long more? Nay, nay

Give me something more
Than just a temporary high
Its probably my fault I know
I just wanna get it by

I crave a change,
Any change at all...

I wanna court danger

Get out of the confines of what is "good" and "right"

Change the image of sweetness and innocence

Do something unexpected

Screw up for a change

Why is doing wrong so easy?

Why does it actually feel good?

Why should I strive to be perfect?

When I already know its impossible

Maybe I'll just be bad till the end

Isn't it easier?

Why not just enjoy life

To the fullest

The ultimate FULL

But what then is the fill?

Could I break the rules

And get away with it?

Answer me

Cuz I'm tired of doing right

Is there such a thing as that?

I highly doubt so

But here I am thinking that anyway

So what?

Actually

You know what?

I'm tired of thinking too

No such thing?

You're wrong

I'm right

I wish I wasn't

By the way

What you're reading now is crap

Totally

But I need a change

I crave something different

Something that fills the gaps

Something that satisfies

Anything

Anything at all

P/s--->>fineee...i admit I'm emo-ing rite now...

What's up??

This is what's up!!! its the KLPac Sinfonietta's latest concert in conjunction with the HSBC Classics String Festival...a really BIG clear picture up there...hehe. btw, for those blur ppl out there, i'm part of the Sinfonietta. as in, i'm playing too laaa...lol. our performance will be on the 13th and 14th of July...which is a fri and sat night. we'll be playing some cool classical stuff...eg. a Haydn cello concerto, "Pomp and Circumstance March", "Masquerade", "Pizzicato Polka", and "St. Paul's Suite". Dunno what the heck I'm rambling bout?? Come then you'll know!!!! ahahaha...=P for more info just --->>click here<<--- or you could ask me bout it =)

oh yeahh...for those who are interested...there will be workshops and master classes for string players...go check out the website then you'll know. there are other concerts too like a wind quintet and a jazz trio.

Got to run now...will update as soon as some special event/happening/person/story appears to inspire me. lol

Till later--->> Hugz n kisses ^^

What do I mean to you?

You say that you love me
I wonder if thats true
You say you'll never leave me
Heard that a time maybe two

You say that you miss me
Too much it reaches the moon
You say, "Baby, would you kiss me?"
Not doing that anytime soon

You say that all
And maybe much much more
But never that one right word
That would open up my door

The one thing have I asked
The one that you never say
The only thing that might heal
My scarred heart this very day

Answer me this
Only be sure its true
Tell me please, tell me this
What do I mean to you?

~~

You say that I'm beautiful
I wonder if I'm just for show
You say that you're proud of me
Only cuz of how I look?

You say that I'm your girl
Just a Show and Tell for friends?
You say that you are there for me
But really, my dear, until the end?

Am I just a toy you play
Like a game to fill a boring day?
Maybe a piece of art you display
Tomorrow thrown, but not for today

The one thing I have asked
The one that you never say
The only thing that might heal
My scarred heart this very day

Answer me this
Only be sure its true
Tell me please, tell me this
What do I mean to you?

Tell me please, answer me this
What do I mean to you?

Nothing to doooo...

M	Magical
I	Inspirational
C	Controversial
H	Hairy
E	Eccentric
L	Luscious
L	Lively
E	Earthy

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till laterz--->> hugz n kisses =)