Its a Monday!!! again...

But at least today's Monday is different...kinda

I don't feel like hibernating

Or moping in my room

Weirdly, what i really feel like doing is...is...errr....

What do I feel like doing??

Cant put it in words exactly...hehe

But nvm...point is, i feel kinda good

For a Monday that is =)

Guess wat?? its a RAINY monday at that

Amazing why I still feel good

But I'm not gonna try to figure my "feel good" feeling right now

I'll just enjoy feeling good 1st...while it lasts

Later I'll figure it ^^

God knows I don't feel like this every day

Heck...i hvnt felt like this in AGES

AEONS maybe

Anyway

The world's a happy place

Cuz I'm happy

*big smiley face*

A heart of stone

Give me a heart of stone
For just a minute a day
I need to feel numbness set in
Merciful numbness from within

A heart of stone
To dry the tears
To numb the pain
Collected from years

A heart of stone
Immune to hurt
Free from ties
That bind me to dirt

A heart of stone
Maybe for just a day
Then I may be truly free
Who cares what people say?

An Illusion of You

In my dreams we've kissed
Only a thousand times before
In my dreams I've held
You close like never before

In my dreams you were perfect
The way you were supposed to be
Then I awoke and saw the truth
My dreams were never meant to be

'Twas just an illusion
That never came to pass
Wishes of a daydreamer
That fade way too fast

Cuz you were standing there
Right before my eyes
Yet you turned away from me
Your goodbye as cold as ice

The reality is this
This reality is true
All along I've loved
An illusion of you

~~

The illusion I wished
Was just to be loved by you
The illusion I faked
And hoped upon hope to be true

But now I see...

The reality is this
This reality is true
I've loved nothing but
An illusion of you

Its all nothing but
My illusion of you...

I don't care

I don't care

No, seriously

I DON'T CARE!!!

I jz wish I could convince myself
that I really don't care

But I can't

should have seen it coming

there was no other way out

stupid me

~~

My hearts on my sleeve
Where else do I put it?
Locked away, in a high tower
Or buried, where no one could find it

My hearts on my sleeve
Easily broken in two
I shouldn't leave it for time to fix
I'm gonna hide it, and throw the key too

~~

I really wish I didn't care
Of the fact that I thought you cared

But you don't

Stupid, dumb ass me

P/s-->> jz emo-ing... dun mind me

I used to believe...

I used to believe
In fairy tales
Prince and princesses
Golden eggs and unicorn tails

I used to believe
The world was fine
A beautiful place to live in
But now I see I was blind

I used to believe
Good reigns over bad
Heroes will rush to save the day
Villains will never have the last say

I used to believe
Love is a special thing
That it would triumph over hate
That soul mates were brought by fate

I used to believe
Dreams always come true
And I was almost right
The moment I found you

I used to believe
Love lasts forever
And I also believed
When you said forever

That I shouldn't have
The biggest mistake I made
It is my fault I know
I believed everything you said

Now I don't believe
In fairy tales
Good seldom wins
Love's a long lost tale

I don't believe
The world's a perfect place
Dreams never do come true
And guess what??

I don't believe in you

~~

I only believe
What I know to be true
Hearts can always be mended
Though mine was broken by you

P/s---->> original idea from pauline....thanks girl!!

update??

okok...update

ermm...update

hmmm...

*thinking*

**thinking real hard**

***bangs head on table***

welllll...nothings coming

sorry

or rather I should say sorry to myself really

not cause I got nothing to blog about

jz other reasons

reason u don't wanna know bout

no, really...u wouldn't wanna know

why did I think you WOULD actually wanna know in the 1st place??

ahhh...my bad

hmmm...

I feel like eating something

cold, sweet

oh yeah, i already ate ice cream

forgot

maybe i should go eat more

or maybe not

too fat already

wait... I'm not fat

last I remembered I was kinda skinny

right???

hmmmm....

what day izzit today??

Monday??

cuz it sure feels like one

no no, its a Wednesday

and it isn't the least bit gloomy

surprising

I thought moods were affected by weather

apparently not

cuz its so damn bright and sunny out there

whatever

I'll pretend I don't care

you know what?

I think I think too much

and in the end I get so disappointed

cuz things don't usually go the way I figure

lemme re-phrase that

things NEVER go the way I figure

but thats another thing I'll pretend not to care bout

shall I??

so yeah...

I DON'T CARE

ok??

done??

fine??

satisfied??

*sigh*

what the heck

I'm talking to myself

again

*michelle slaps herself*

now I shall get the heck outta here

go collect my scattered brains

laterzz