Who Have I Become?

Oh God
Who have I become?
Look at me
What have I done

I became the person
I hated the most
Did the same things
I despised a host

What came over me
To make me do such?
How do I regain
Something worth so much?

Tell me please
The cold, hard truth
Spare me nothing
I just need some proof

That all's not lost
That I'm the same inside
Not the monster I see
Beneath that coy smile outside

Or is it gone
The girl I once knew
Buried under hurt
Afraid of pain anew

Help me please
I can't bear the guilt
Mercy, come wash away
The black empire I built

Oh God
Who have I become?
I'm so scared
Can this be undone?

Cuz I don't know
Who I have become

P/s---->> dun go thinkin nothing...lol.

Blue skies broken

Will my dream
Ever be reality?
What had become
Of my lovely fantasy?

The illusion never changed
Into something real
I was barely hoping
That this was the right deal

Now I'm alone
Me, myself and I
Broken to the core
Torn up on the floor

What went wrong?
I'm in a daze
I just found myself
Caught up in this maze

My fantasy shattered
Blue skies broken
The stars hid their faces
Despair was woken

Trust, never again
Hope, I must disdain
Dreams, cause much pain
Faith, my only gain


...Blue skies were broken
My deep despair woken...

I need something

I need something
To make me complete
There's something missing
Its something I need

Cuz when I'm alone
When silence sets in
When all voices stop
Only whisperings of the wind

That's when I feel it
The emptiness inside
The void of a thousand years
My soul it divides

Is there more to life
Than this empty token?
Like clinging on to a rope
That's about to be broken

Save me! Help me!!
I don't care who at all
The silence it tortures me
Like blows from a wrecking ball

Show me the way
To fill this void
Need I happiness or virtue?
Love or should I avoid?

I don't care how
I don't care who
I need to feel I'm full
Anything at all I'll do

Cuz I need something
To make me complete
There's something missing
No idea what's it that I need

God help me

P/s --->> no worries!! lol...im nt really writing about me

Music of the Heart

Music that lives
Alive with emotion
Touches hearts
Sets into motion

Music that makes
Grown men weep
Softens hard hearts
Plunges in deep

Music that crosses
Every barrier
Of language or color
Of nation or carrier

Music that's felt
With pure, divine love
Nothing in between
As sweet as a dove

That's the music
I wanna play
The music that lives
Forever and a day

Cuz I believe in music
Music from the heart
Worth more than gems or gold
Is music of the heart

...Music of the Heart...

Just loving you

It happened so fast
All in a blink of an eye
I was just driving along
Never expected to die

But I guess my time was up
Had to answer Death's call
I know the pain I've caused
The tears, loneliness and all

I'm so sorry my dear
I couldn't keep my promise
To take care and love you
For always and always

Death parted us too soon
We didn't have enough time
But no worries, just remember this
Your heart will still be mine

So live you life
We'll be together sometime
When its your turn to come
Here where no clock marks time

I'm sorry, my sweetheart
I just had to go
But don't worry, I'll still be here
You may not see me though

You know that
I'll miss you
But I'll always
Be with you

I'll never stop
Just loving you
So don't stop
Loving me too

P/s its kinda a sequel to --->>"Anything"<<--- (one of my old posts). its the other side of the story...as in...de fella who died-ed. lolx

"No-one-loves-my-poems Syndrome"

uhuhhh...no one reads dem anywayz...so why should I keep on posting?? welll...besides de 1 or 2 ppl i noe who really appreciate dem. n actually COMMENT. so i think I'll quit posting 4 de time being. should I?? no one cares anyway...riteee??? I dun even noe who actually visits my blog. besides beloved "kuku case" (big big hugzzz!!) and mayb sum other occational visitors....*sob sobzzz*

THE POINT IS............please please please drop a comment or smth in my chatbox so I'll noe SOMEONE actually reads my stuff (or crap...whichever applies). i dun care if i dun noe you at all...total stranger who happened to find my blog...nevermind. as long as SOMEPPL other den ermmmm...pauline?? wesley?? michelle ooi?? (i think dats all)...reads here. okkkkk??? deal??? so leave a trace when ur here. anonymousity doesnt matter. just leave a trace...lol. I'm kinda desperate...I'll admit dat. hehe...

please please pleaseeeee....if not I'll go thinking I'm a useless writer *soobbbbzzzz*


lots of luv--->> Michelle =)



fineeee....also admit I'm kinda emo rite now. doesnt mean I dont mean wat I jz said...

Wondering about you

...A letter to the future "love of my life"...


Dearest,

I was just wondering
Who would you be?
How would you look like?
Would you really love me?

I was just wondering
If you were short or tall
Charming or funny
Both or not at all

I was just wondering
Where you are right now
Whether far or near
Have I seen you before?

I was just wondering
When I would meet you
Where? How? Who?
So many questions, nothing new

I was just wondering
How would I know its you?
But I guess there's no answer
At the right time I'll just do

I was just wondering
If you were wondering too
When our paths will cross
And love will lead me to you

I was just wondering
Just wondering...

Wondering about you

Three wishes...

If I had three wishes...

I would wish
We never had met
I never saw your face
Together we never sat

If I had three wishes...

I would wish
Time could be turned
Fate could be erased
The past could be burned

If I had three wishes...

I would wish
For neither riches nor wealth
Long life nor peace
Everlasting joy nor health

If I had three wishes...

I would only wish
That you could be here
And I could loose myself
In your gaze so crystal clear

Forever, my dear
Forever so near

P/s sorry paulineeee!!!! hehe...its her idea actually. you can read her post here --->>Click here<<--- stole her idea cuz it ws so ingenious!!! lol..bt changed it to suit my kinda style =P (hope you dont mind gurllll...hehe)

Never really loved you anyway

You walked in
Right into my life
Then walked out
Stabbing me like a knife

You started it
Then brought it to an end
But I don't care anyway
I don't give a damn

Cuz...

I never really loved you anyway
Was lucky that it stayed this way
Now there's nothing left to say
Don't think you loved me, it's okay

Cuz I never really loved you anyway


Am I hurt?
I'm not really sure
When you walked
Out that door my dear

You started it
Then brought it to an end
But I don't care anyway
I don't give a damn

Cuz...

I never really loved you anyway
Was lucky that it stayed this way
Now there's nothing left to say
Don't think you loved me, it's ok

Cuz I never really loved you anyway

~~~~

Wait, who am I kidding here?
I did love you once, you hear?
But never thought it'll be this way
You never loved me anyway

P/s--->> jz tryin smth diff..hehe

Friend Test

heyyaa!!

Just made a "friend test" n its on my sidebar. go check it out k??? good way to noe who REALLY noes me...muuahhahaha*evil villain laugh* =P no worries...ill still luv u even if u get 0%. hahaha...or maybe not *cheeky smile*

more poems?? sry...too mixed up last few days to write anything post-able. or rather...nything that wont destroy my "gud girl" image. hahaha...got a clue?? nvrmind...dun even noe wat im crappin. hehe...laterzz...


*muakzz*

-->Michelle<--

Can you...??

Can you feel lonely
Surrounded by people?

Can you feel empty
When life's at the fullest?

Can you love to do something
But not have the heart to do it?

Can you believe in yourself
But not have the confidence needed?

Can you feel broken up
When everything was just fixed?

Can you love someone
But hate the same person?

Can you want to remember something
But try your best to forget?

...Cuz I can...

~~~~~~~~~

A kiss
Isn't called a kiss
Till you can touch
The inmost heart

Love
Is never called love
Till someone could break
Your mended heart

...Love...

~~~~~~~~~

P/s--->> ooopsss...hehe. sry in a emo mood...

Impossible

I see my dreams
The light at the tunnel's end
I see my future here
Coming just around the bend
I can touch it
I can feel the sucess
All I really need
Is faith at the very best

My dreams shine
Bigger than reality
More than I'll ever hope for
But I sincerely believe...

~~~~~

That to have faith
Nothing is impossible
I'll reach for the sky
Don't say its not practical
No holding fears
Could ever hold me back
Cuz I'm breaking free
To do the impossible

Never say its impossible

~~~~~

Don't tell me now
To stop aiming for the moon
Don't tell me now
You'll never reach the stars soon
Cuz I know my God
Can do the impossible
It's as simple as that
Anything is possible

My dreams shine
Bigger than reality
More than I'll ever hope for
But I sincerely believe...

~~~~~

That to have faith
Nothing is impossible
I'll reach for the sky
Don't say its not practical
No holding fears
Could ever hold me back
Cuz I'm breaking free
To do the impossible

Don't tell me its impossible...

~~~~~