Its a rainy Monday...again

funny how moods are usually affected by the weather

but rainy Mondays are the worst

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well...u probably noticed i hvnt been updating my blog much. dats cuz i realized ive probably written at least one poem for each and every topic thats close to heart. which in turn, doesnt leave me much more to write about at all. so i'll rather not write anything than run the risk of repeating myself. I NEED INSPIRATION!!!!!


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so tell me why do I feel this way??

Imagine

Imagine myself away
Far from this crazy life
To somewhere over the rainbow
Without any troubles or strife

Imagine myself away
To where wishes do come true
A place no one would ever know
Fantasies my heart believe are true

Imagine, just imagine
And I could reach the sky
Bring the moon back from its place
Just imagine, and I could fly

Imagine, just imagine
And I could float with clouds
Touch the stars and take one back
Just imagine, and have no doubts

Imagine, only imagine
All my problems away
I'm myself, for once a change
Imagine, and there'll always be a way

Imagine
Just imagine

P/s--->> the idea for this post is taken from pauline. go check out her blog for the original --->>click here<<---

Here by the phone

You haven't called
I'm still here by the phone
Been eating my heart out
Waiting for that little tone

Why am I doing this?
Breaking my own heart this way
I already know the answer to this
Been thinking about you all day

You and me wouldn't work
I knew it from the start
Even before you said the first hello
I knew you would break my heart

Kept my mouth shut anyway
And tried to wish the jinx away
Now I know it didn't do much good
Since now I know whatever should I do?

You still haven't called
And I'm still here by the phone
Nothing left of my heart to eat out
Just waiting for that little tone

P/s--->> i know wat ur thinking..."Michelle's getting awfully repetitive n loosing her poetic inspiration" rite?? well...guess wat?? ur RIGHT!! haha

Thank God...FINALLY!!!

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm nearly jumping for joy...hehe

so yeahhh...after hours of melting and/or baking in a lil white kancil, waiting around in steaming "pondoks", listening to approx. 10 hours of total crap, not to mention plenty of blood, sweat, and tears ~(weellll...maybe not the blood and tears part...but u get the idea)~ i got this little card thingy with my picture and name on it. and oh yeah, my address too!! but to me its my TICKET TO FREEDOM!!!!! to think that all my life...ever since i could remember, i have looked upon this day as the day of my independence. the day I will break free from all rulers and all rules. the day I will declare my freedom to the world. the day that...that...~cuts it short~// its my MERDEKA...MERDEKA!! *dreamy look* sighhhhhh...*snaps out of it* hahaha...excuse mua...jz being dramatic =P

so the point is...I CAN DRIVE!! i mean like...legally of cuz. haha. the test wasnt that bad...besides the fact that it was freaking hot and i had to wait for God knows how long...it wasnt bad at all. the best part is i actually passed everything. with not bad marks actually. hehe...was so scared i wud flunk and hv to retake the whole stupid thing again. the JPJ officer guy was kinda friendly...so that was good. n i didnt knock any poles during my parking test. n i didnt roll down the hill on that "naik bukit" thingy. so IT WAS ALL GOOD. hahaha...n I'm SO done with the freaking stupid learning driving system. *wohhoooooo!!!*

anybody needs a lift anytime??? stranded on some deserted road with no transport?? need to get somewhere on an emergency?? no prob!! jz call me =) hahaha...
(wait a min...I'm jz joking ok?? lol)

gonna go test out my new found freedom now...wish me luck!! hopefully i dont end up in hospital or my car on the back of a tow truck. *God forbid* hehe...

WATCH OUT MALAYSIA!!! MICHELLE'S LOOSE ON THE ROAD!!!!!!!!!!

Till later-->> hugz n kisses =)

Saturday morn

Looking gorgeous
On a Friday night
I thought I had lotsa fun
Was out partying all night

Admit I flirted a lil
Had a few drinks with friends
Tried to dance my troubles away
But God knows troubles never end

That was then
And this is now...

I'm all alone
With only myself to blame
Staring at my own reflection
Yet I'm hating the same

The make-up is gone
So is the smile I put on
My eyes are dimmed with tears of shame
I know deep inside I got no one else to blame

The mask is off
And I'm so empty inside
I wonder what happened to
All the fun I had tonight

There's nothing left
But tears streaming down my face
There's nothing left
Not a single sign, not a little trace

I'm gorgeous no more
Early on a Saturday morn
My eyes are red, my heart's so dead
Am I supposed to greet the lovely dawn?

Yet tonight I'll do the same
Put on my make-up, play on my game
Looking for more, I'll search on each day
Don't care how or where, I'll find it some way

P/s---->> inspiration definitely ain't personal experience ok?? lol

Golden Girls

Hello world!
How do you do?
Know what "Golden Girls" are?
Here's some of the basic rules

Welllllll......

We never screw up
We're not allow to
We must always be good
No exceptions, thats the rule

Prim and proper
Thats the way to go
Go crazy and hyper??
No way!! That's a big no no

No alcohol
And definitely no tattoos
Don't even think of clubs and pubs
Just the word itself is taboo

No skirts above the knee
We can only dream about midriffs
Jeans must never be tight or a fit
Baggy's best, that should do it

No more than 2 piercings
One on each ear I mean
We don't have curfews, are you surprised?
That's cuz we're never out...talk about deprived!!

That's just the basic rules
Haven't even got started
But we the Golden Girls know
The last rule's our target

Its the same as the first
Just put in different words
Its says, "Never ever ever screw up"
Wrong that, and you whole life's up!!

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But now I'm breaking free
I'll be Golden Girl no more
Cuz I'm no angel
And I'm no saint
I wanna be who I am
Definitely not perfect, that I ain't

P/s--->> dramatized as usual =P so dont go take it literally....

Im so dead tired...

so so so dead tired. So wat am I doing here blogging?? good question. very good question...

Probably cuz my life's a mess. or maybe just some parts of it. nothing is ever what it appears to be rite?? yeap...I'm a living example. or on second thought...its not my life thats in a mess. its just my head. n im sitting here right now to sort my thoughts out. but what am i actually thinking?? i have NO idea. isn't that just FANTASTIC??? *sarcastic*

so yeahh...I'm not stressing...so it can't be that. got nothing in particular to stress about. It cant be friendship problems...kinda got immune to that awhile ago. Its not any RELATIONSHIP problems...the closest thing I have to a boyfriend is my DOG. sad ain't it?? actually its not sad at all...funner being single. anywayz, back to the point. so what is it?? whats making me sit here when I'm so dead tired already? Most probably its the need to sort my thoughts. But what thoughts am I thinking that need to be sorted?? Its so totally muddled up there (in my head) I cant even figure my own thoughts. how lame is that?? so wait....where was I again?? what was my point?? nevermind then...better disappear before I start messin my whole blog up ~n sooo regretting it later~

oh yeah, by the way...this post is a result of 5 hours straight orchestra rehearsals. it totally messes your "upper story" (your head). so dont mind me please...not thinking straight. heck!! i dont think I'm even thinking right now. byyyeeeeee.....


Till I recollect my wits again--->> hugz n kisses

Give me something more
Than just a temporary high
I need something more
Than just a way to get by

Every turn I take
Leads me further away
Every move I make
I seem further astray

Every minute to date
I feel emptier each day
God, please not too late
How long more? Nay, nay

Give me something more
Than just a temporary high
Its probably my fault I know
I just wanna get it by

I crave a change,
Any change at all...

I wanna court danger

Get out of the confines of what is "good" and "right"

Change the image of sweetness and innocence

Do something unexpected

Screw up for a change

Why is doing wrong so easy?

Why does it actually feel good?

Why should I strive to be perfect?

When I already know its impossible

Maybe I'll just be bad till the end

Isn't it easier?

Why not just enjoy life

To the fullest

The ultimate FULL

But what then is the fill?

Could I break the rules

And get away with it?

Answer me

Cuz I'm tired of doing right

Is there such a thing as that?

I highly doubt so

But here I am thinking that anyway

So what?

Actually

You know what?

I'm tired of thinking too

No such thing?

You're wrong

I'm right

I wish I wasn't

By the way

What you're reading now is crap

Totally

But I need a change

I crave something different

Something that fills the gaps

Something that satisfies

Anything

Anything at all

P/s--->>fineee...i admit I'm emo-ing rite now...

What's up??

This is what's up!!! its the KLPac Sinfonietta's latest concert in conjunction with the HSBC Classics String Festival...a really BIG clear picture up there...hehe. btw, for those blur ppl out there, i'm part of the Sinfonietta. as in, i'm playing too laaa...lol. our performance will be on the 13th and 14th of July...which is a fri and sat night. we'll be playing some cool classical stuff...eg. a Haydn cello concerto, "Pomp and Circumstance March", "Masquerade", "Pizzicato Polka", and "St. Paul's Suite". Dunno what the heck I'm rambling bout?? Come then you'll know!!!! ahahaha...=P for more info just --->>click here<<--- or you could ask me bout it =)

oh yeahh...for those who are interested...there will be workshops and master classes for string players...go check out the website then you'll know. there are other concerts too like a wind quintet and a jazz trio.

Got to run now...will update as soon as some special event/happening/person/story appears to inspire me. lol

Till later--->> Hugz n kisses ^^