Emo days are back...

I've got back my urge to blog again

Nope, not really a good thing...

I don't understand why I feel this way

Everything worked out great

The timing's fabulous

Exactly the way I would have wanted it

Not a single day earlier...

So why can't I be happy??

Why must I be so selfish??

And so clingy??

Why....

I've become too dependent

Too reliant on changeable things

Now I have to learn again

The art of standing alone

Of being alone

Don't tell me you'll always be there

Its simply not possible

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The change came just too soon

And too sudden

Caught me off guard

And don't tell me not to be like this
I'm sorry emotions can't be handled
Leave me be I'll be fine
I think

My poor poor blog....

...has been painfully neglected indeed

awww...poor thing...

guess i've been just too busy

moonlighting??

sunlighting rather

plus college on top of that

or maybe its the lack of inspiration

a desperate lack of emo-ness

and DRAMA

nope, don't miss it

life's nice as it is

enjoying it to the max

*contented sigh*

and now when I finally find the time to blog...

guess what??

I've got nothing to say

oh well...

I'll just be bored for the next couple of mins

watching him sleep...

he looks so peaceful

*sigh*

I love him

The truest love that ever heart
Felt at its kindled core
Did through each vein, in quickened start
The tide of being pour

Her coming was my hope each day
Her parting was my pain
The chance that did her steps delay
Was ice in every vein

I dreamed it would be nameless bliss
As I loved, loved to be
And to this object did I press
As blind as eagerly

But wide as pathless was the space
That lay our lives between
And dangerous as the foamy race
Of ocean-surges green

And haunted as a robber-path
Through wilderness or wood
For Might and Right and Woe and Wrath
Between our spirits stood

The dangers I dared, I hindrance scorned
I omens did defy
Whatever menaced, harassed, warned
I passed impetuous by

On sped my rainbow, fast as light
I flew as in a dream
For glorious rose upon my sight
The child of Shower and Gleam

Still bright and on clouds of suffering dim
Shines that soft, solemn joy
Nor care I now, how dense and grim
Disasters gather nigh

I care not in this moment sweet
Through all I have rushed o'er
Should come on pinion, strong and fleet
Proclaiming vengeance sore

Though Haughty hate should strike me down
Right, bar approach to me
And grinding Might, with furious frown
Swear endless enmity

My love has placed her little hand
With noble faith in mine
And vowed that wedlock's sacred band
Our nature shall entwine

My love has sworn, with sealing kiss
With me to love- to die
I have at last my nameless bliss
As I love- loved am I

P/s---->> NOPE...i did not write this. hehe...i just found it really interesting and sweet while i was reading "JANE EYRE".

But soon...

Seasons come
Faces go
Hours pass
Highs and lows

Seconds creep
Minutes crawl
Feelings wait
Behind the walls

Despair wakes
Loneliness drolls
Where is my love?
When will he call?...

But soon, but soon
My heart to wait
But soon, but soon
Loving arms will I await

But soon, but soon
His answer will ring
But soon, but soon
My beloved my pleas will bring

But soon, but soon
I will relish in his love
But soon, but soon
We'd be blissful as turtledoves

But soon, but soon...
Lonely heart do await

P/s--->> anyone up for some old-world charm?? haha...

the celebrity me

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pointless

hmmm...so wat can i say?? haven't blogged in like AGES...got plenty of stuff to write bout but kinda much too soppy to blog about. hehe =P WHY u ask?? well...hmmm....nvm la. ignorance is bliss...if u really are THAT ignorant *tsk tsk tsk*. haha!

lifes going at a comfortable pace. more ups than downs. busy enough to keep me occupied and boring enough to give me lotsa hang out time. hehe...jealous?? too bad =P

so then...what was i talking about again?? hmmm...dont remember my point anymore. hehe! nvm, ill blog again when i remember wat i wanted to say. gtg now...laterz!!


*hugz n kisses*
~Chella~

La-la-nezzz???

goshhh....haha!! whats becoming of me??? *reminder to myself: never never EVER stick out two fingers on each hand again*

Valentines....

....is OVERRATED

ahhh!! before u guys get out the big guns and kill me...do let me explain will you?? haha...

Valentines as a day for love is all good...i mean, its one time you can appreciate that special someone and all. very nice, very nice. The only thing I cant stand is seeing it so so commercialized nowadays. everythings especially expensive...flowers are TWICE the price, restaurants put all effort to "cut throat", etc. Its a crazy world...where something so romantic could be used for business purposes.

U know what??!! I should have valentines on the 13th instead!! avoid all the crowds n crazy prices...yeahhh....hehe. (To that someone-->> what do u think?? =P) or maybe the 15th would do too...hmmm...

Anywayz, all the criticisms aside, I really did have a nice nice time last night. Everything was so...ermm...traditionally romantic. haha!! I dunno how else to put it. It was flowers, movie, dinner...the whole package. The best part was of course the person I shared the night with...hehe. (everyone go "awwwwwww....") My 1st valentine date ever....*wide smile* definitely a night to remember...*dreamy look*

haha!! so I better get going before I get lost in dreamland...hope u guys had an amazing last night too =)


*hugz n kisses*
~~chella~~

(so then, is "elle" or "chella" nicer?? hehe...let me know pleaseee)

Happy CNY everyone!!!!!!!!!

yupyup...its that time of the year again. and i think i definitely put on at least 2 kgs just over the weekend...aikzz...*faints*. hehe, oh well...ill have the rest of the year to work it off. =P no biggie...

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somehow this chinese new year's been kinda quiet...not much going on. just the extra eating of cuz...hehe. other than that nothing special happened. hmmm...and i dont suppose anything else special is gonna happen anytime soon either. life is somehow settling into a comfortable, nice routine. with enough changes to keep me sane, yet enough of a routine to keep me grounded. haha!! yeah, i guess i could put it that way. hmmm...wait a min...

Could I live like this the rest of my life???!!

okayyyy...that was random. kindly ignore...hehe. but yeah, if this is a fore-shadow of what the rest of my life holds, eg. my job, my family, my whatever........me like it =) oh well, God has plans. if only i had a sneak peak =P

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Valentines is just around the corner...*wide smile* probably the 1st valentines day im actually looking forward to. hehe, yeahh...i was THAT pathetic. nows different. HOW u ask?? go find out urself if your actually THAT blurr...haha!!

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I feel old...like...OLD. only got 3 more years of teen life. goshh...but...come to think of it, its pretty young comparatively. STILLL....i wanna stay 17 forever!!!!!!!!!!! -->>mmhmm...impossible i know *knocks herself on the head*<<--

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okok...i better go before my thoughts run away with me =) have a nice nice fat fat happy happy CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!!!

*hugz n kisses*
~~elle~~

(could i please pleasee change my nickname?? i never really liked "mich" =P)

Pretty little star

Pretty little star I see
So bright in the clear dark sky
Won't you please grant me a single wish
Just one from your perch so high

Let this last forever
Just this moment alone
Magically bathed in pale moonlight
Tucked away in the darkness of the night

Let this last forever
Safe in the arms I love
No thought of shadows that cloud my days
All my worries melt in love's pure gaze

Let this last forever
If forevers what it's gonna take
To satisfy a longing I can never comprehend
To overcome an addiction I could never understand

So let this last forever
Pretty little star so high
Cuz there's no where else I would rather be
Than here in my love's arms tonight

P/s---->> soppy-nezz alert!!! haha...sorry ppl...read too many mushy stories.

Treasure Time

If only every minute
Could seem like a lifetime
And every little second
Would be like forever

If only the clock
Ticked a wee bit slower
And I could keep time
Hidden like precious treasure

If only the hours
Didn't fly with wings away
And every single moment
Lasted like years this way

But that could never happen
Time was meant to be
Treasured like greatest of treasures
Which stops for no man, not me

I'm...

...ermmm...

scared

unsure

though I shouldn't be

got mixed feelings

happy and excited for someone

yet somehow...

I don't even know what I'm feeling

worried maybe

trying not to hold on too tight

or be too clingy

but I can't help it

I'm emotional

I knew this would come sooner or later...

I guess I was hoping for later




The new year came too soon

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But I'll be happy

Even if I have to hide my feelings

I'll smile

Just for you

Don't worry, I'll live

pure nonsense

I'm bored

Feel like blogging

But blog about what???

Good question, Michelle

hmmm...

blog about New Year's Eve??

nahh, nothing much happened

Christmas??

even less happened...nahhh...

errr...

I can't think

SO can't think

my heads somewhere else

no, i think my HEARTS somewhere else

don't ask where

floating in the clouds maybe

or buried six feet under??

hmmm...floatings more like it

whatever

I'll go watch tv instead

and wait till my inspiration comes next then only I'll blog

no point cracking my head now

btw, is it still in place??

my head I mean

wait

I'm rambling right??

pure crap

aikzz... Michelle, just disappear

byeee!!

*poof*

*disappears in a puff of smoke*