What the heck was I expecting anyway??

Like seriously...

I feel so damn stupid

Making the same mistakes

Over and over again

Disappointing myself...

But guess it's all my fault

I shouldn't have expected anything

Cuz theres nothing anyway

I'm nothing to you

Why did you make me think otherwise??

**sigh**

P/s--->> dont even TRY to figure wth I'm saying here...aint that sure myself

Baby, take your pick

Been waiting up all night
Wondering whats on your mind
You've got me puzzled, my dear
Clear my thoughts? Would you be so kind?

What do you really want?
Where are we meant to go?
All I get are mixed signals
Jumping about to and fro

Do you really want me?
Sometimes seems like you don't
Yet other times you do adore me
But sometimes seems like you won't

I so don't get it
Confused without a clue
Do you want me? Gotta let me know
I'm not waiting around, I'm not here for show

So tell me now
Baby, tell me quick
Maybe I'll wait awhile
Baby, take your pick

Glimmer of a hope

Dreaming
I think I should stop
Been wishing
And waiting until I could drop

Cuz in the end
Do dreams ever come true?
Tell me, my friend
What are wishes to you?

To me they are...

Empty promises
Blatant tricks of mind
Nothing but guesses
About a future thats so blind

Call me a pessimist
Call me such a bore
That I'd rather be than a romanticist
With empty wishes knocking my door

I've learned the hard way
Believe me when I say so
My dreams I've all but locked away
Leaving for the winds of time to blow

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But yet somethings missing
An urge inside of me
The need for a dream to carry me through
The glimmer of a hope that I once knew

Freaking out!!!

Soooooooooo........de exams gonna be way harder den i thought. oops sorry...VIOLIN exam i mean. *sighhh* For the 1st time in my life i actually practiced till my fingers are red raw and my neck has a mark that looks very suspiciously like a hickey~ from holding the violin too long mind u...not making out in the bushes~ But no matter how much i practice no one can guarantee me a pass. dang those stupid diploma exams!! actually...dang stupid exams(in general)!!

But i guess practicing my butt off does help to a certain degree. so off i go...to practice till my fingers fall off. or my head is permanently angled strangely. or my eyes pop out from straining to read little "taugeh" notes. however you want to put it. makes no difference to me =)

Freaking out
I can't see the way
How do I pass??
Practicing my butt off each day

I really need a miracle
Lord, give me a sign
In the form of a nice big "A+"
Or a "99%" I wouldn't mind

...

I felt it

Finally

My heart was racing

The feeling so intense

Emotions were flying

Sending tingles down my spine

The passion was beautiful

Charging the air around me

I closed my eyes

Living in that moment

Forever, if only

But I couldn't hold on

Had to let it go

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Nope, I'm not in love

And NO, its not what your thinking (don't be dirty!!)

So what was I doing??

**ahem ahem**

I was practicing my violin =P

I made ~for the 1st time~ real MUSIC

Cuz I didn't just play

I FELT

True music of the heart

and THAT jz about sums me up...=)

Sorry for the lack of new posts lately. Been rather bz and low on inspiration these days. But I'll be back with lotsa new poems to post up soon...i HOPE. Foresee I'll be M.I.A the rest of the week sooooo....miss me ok?? haha =P

--->>hugz n kisses<<---

Whats up???

this is what's up!! its a musical which actually doesnt hv very much to do with Tunku himself. which is ironic but...hehe. anywayz, the storyline is great, the music is great, the dancing is great, and so is the singing. haven't really got the whole story yet so i cant give a synopsis. kinda hard to concentrate on the music sheets in front of me and the drama itself at the same time...but i know its good 4 sure =)

the opening night is on the 11th August and it goes on till 2nd September. awfully long time rite?? haha...so u got no excuse to catch it =P tickets are not that expensive...forgot exactly how much though. hmmm...u know what?? just go to the website n check it out la. easier that way...lol --->>KLPac's website<<--- oh yea, its a KLPac production btw.

if u need more info I'm alwayz here *wide smile*

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life has been pretty normal so far. been bz with that "Tunku" thing. every night rehearsal u noe... haihhzz...but it aint that bad actually. hehe..we still do hv fun with the hard work. like lately we've been bringing lots n lots of chocolates n candy n MENTOS. and having a nice nice picnic there (though we're not supposed to be eating backstage...*shhhhhh!!!*) hahaha. so its all good...still tiring though. one fine day when i do remember to bring my cam I'll go get some candid shots to post up here. den u can c how skilled we are at playing a violin and popping M&M's into our mouths AT THE SAME TIME. yup, its definitely possible. when theres a will, theres a way... *cheeky smile*

got to run now...will update when i find time to think


--->>signing off<<---